Love to Hate them

i might come out selfish at this but i can't help myself.

whenever i am at the house seems like i want to stay more outside. there are just people here that i don't want to be with. i don't know why i hate them so much.

the more i live here, the more i come to hate them...

personally they just don't reach my standards(sosyal ko kay naa koy standards para sa mga tao diri). maybe because they take advantage with the people around them. they always depend on the things around them. they don't even know how to clean up and organize things which pisses me off. they put their stuffs anywhere in the house(mga damak!).

"naa pa isa ka hari-harian diri demanding kaayo when it comes sa trabaho murag si kinsa.when he would really come to think of it,he is really very fortunate everytime he applies for a job because he gets hired easily and eventually he just take all the works for granted,he even gets promoted in no longer time. dili macontento sa unsay naa.gusto nya ginasilbihan sya.feeling royalty bah!!!gusto siguro niya 1 million iyang monthly sa trabaho.kung ana iyang style, wa syay future.manghold-up na lang sya.baga sya ug nawng naga linkgod-lingkod lang sya diri. gahulat ug gaba...aw!grasya diay...forgive me Lord!...

we're just of contradicting principles and beliefs maybe...i know i have to respect him as my uncle but it's been a long time that i lost my respect for him.not totally but somehow,i am still trying to show that.

i just wanna express my hurts and pains and anger through this blog.

anyone who reads this,

-what you see,what you read,leave it here-(learned from Mrs.Morales)

Meant to be Black

what a day! and it's a wash day.

but i really did not feel great. i don't know why...i feel more lazy now that it's already finals. instead of doing my best since it will be the last, the more i become lazy. i hope i can still maintain my good grades.

well, anyway i just really wanted to share thoughts about the person i admire...it was this late afternoon when i saw him during one of our school meetings. i was wondering earlier that day if our sections will have the same schedule of the meeting for an event this coming weekend.

founding out after our class that almost all sophomore students was at the venue for the meeting.

i was looking for their class but they weren't there yet. i just waited until i saw one of his classmates in. i was excited to see him. i was thrilled like watching a movie because he went in last. when i saw him, i was already flattered especially when i noticed that we had the same color of shirt-black.(i'll make it white to be visible)

while we were on that room, i was pretending that it was just nothing though i really keep on looking at him every single time. remembering the feeling of having an ultimate crush during the highschool days. it was just so fun and it will really make you blush...i wonder if i am already obvious...(i hope not).i don't want him to find out.plus, before i even went home,he passed through me.

admiring him is enough for me,just to put color on my weekdays so that i don't get bored. i don't have to flirt on him to be noticed.when we met by the corridor and he smiles, it already inspires me...

everything's enough for a simple admiration...

A Day of Excellency

i was thinking just the time i woke up, this would be a harsh day because it's tuesday,i have to wake up early and attend boring classes. i don't know why i hate tuesdays and thursdays.

but i was wrong, i guess God wants me to love every single day. many beautiful things just happened to me especially on my academic performance. i have received the grades of my first 4 subjects and it was awesome! i didn't expect my grades would increase that much...it actually increased more than 10 points each and i don't know how was i able to gain that.

maybe, just a matter of little interest, little hard work, little determination, little perseverance and most of all (♥)GREAT INSPIRATION(♥) for that(he he).

one of my professors told me that if i am aiming for the honors, that grade would be enough but still i have to do good on my finals. he really doesn't have to worry because I'll still do what i have done during that midterm period or who may ever know, i can do better than that!(hmp!)

honestly, i am not really interested on aiming for the honors. just having a satisfactory grade would be enough,though having honors is still very much appreciated and indeed a privilege.

right now, i am still waiting for my other subjects and i wish they also improve that way. this is my first semester for this field and i am looking forward to also excel in the coming subjects how it might ever be challenging.

God Blessed My Sunday!

as early as the break of dawn, God already had opened my new day with an inspiration and of course a new life.

while i was sleeping,God gave me a flattering dream.

it was me and my crush, we were together on a crowded place and it's like i was there wherever he goes. when eventually he had a problem in one of the facilities there, i was trying to help him(there was no problem in helping him because we knew each other), but when i approached and talked to him, he noticed that i had a crush on him-i don't know how he knew that- and that i was falling for him. so he told that i was just inlove that's why i've helped. i was shocked when he uttered those words and started to feel shaking

though he did not told me what it was. i stared at him deeply and i don't know what was i thinking that time.

i don't even know what had happened next because i was awaken by my cellular phone because my real life partner sent me text message.

from that dream alone, i have felt that God is always good. so when i attended the mass, i said thanks to him and for all the wonderful and bountiful blessings including the challenges i've succeeded. i was even more inspired when we were in the church because the priest wasn't the usual priest who celebrates the mass during the time. he was new and was like a newly ordaned priest because somehow i can see in him that he is still getting used with celebrating the mass but with God's grace, the mass was still heartfelt.

until my day ended, i still can feel that God had really given me a wonderful day, i have even somehow helped a hungry child while we were eating on a fast food chain, the child asked for a little food and i did not hesitate to give him. my special someone also bought me a present that i had really appreciated.

we should really give thanks to God always and not forget him at all times and to always return back to him for us to feel a life of contentment despite the shortcomings and pain we have inside.and another thing, the priest was also good looking and young...hmmm...just kiddin'...

God loves us all and it shouldn't be taken for granted.

i love weekend!

Yey!God had blessed the students! its a weekend again.
time for the students to relax and the party goers to have fun. and this time, we'll be having a long weekend for we won't have a class this monday. atleast i only have 4 days of school days.
i am now looking forward for summer. i got many plans to keep me busy this vacation season and of course try to have my own income. and also i want to take up summer classes to cope up in my subjects. i hope i could take up major subjects for me not to be so behind. if major won't do, minor will cover up. and my most favorite plan is to take up driving lesson. if i'll be able to learn driving it would be a great privilege. learning other things aside from studies is really fun and i love it so much especially challenging things.
anyway, before proceeding to summer i just wanted to share what had happened in the first day of my weekend which is friday(yesterday). friday is really my favorite day for the school days because i am excited for the resting days and it will be the last day of the week for my school works.
my friday this week really gave me a feeling of advance peace of mind. it was like, i only have one subject for the day out of my 4 subjects. i only had my morning class period. during the afternoon, i thought that i will be busy but realizing it after, i just went to school to "kill the time".
we were just given a home work fo r the theology subject, we did not have our english class because our professor was on an educational trip with the freshmen. so i just spend my time in the internet laboratory surfing the net.
i was supposed to have my 3-4pm class but i decided not to attend until i just saw my classmates and asked them if they had any discussion and they just said that our professor for the health economics also did not had a class..i was starting to feel very relax and it was only my p.e that i was waiting for.
at around 3:30-5pm, there was a blackout so me and my friend went out of the campus to eat our snacks.then finding out later that our meeting for the p.e was postponed because of the blackout.that's why i was able to go home earlier.i was thinking, that eventhough i did not have a class that afternoon,i still did not regret it because i had fun. and anyway it's already weekend so it was all fine.
it's a celebration everyone!whew...
have a nice and safe weekend and God bless!

Gotta Go My Own Way (high school musical2 ST)

I gotta say what’s in my mind

Something about us doesn’t seem right these days

Life keeps getting in the way

Whenever we try, somehow the plan is always rearranged

It’s so hard to say

But I’ve gotta do what’s best for me

You’ll be okay

I’ve go to move on and be who I am

I just don’t belong here

I hope you understand

We might find our place in this world someday

But at least for now I gotta go my own away

Don’t wanna leave it all behind

But I get my hopes up and I watch them fall everytime

Another colour turns to grey and it’s just too hard to watch it all slowly fade away

I’m leaving today ‘coz I’ve gotta do what’s best for me

You’ll be okay

I’ve got to move on and be who I am

I just don’t belong here

I hope you understand

We might find our place in this world someday

But at least for nowI gotta go my own away
(Troy)What about us?

What about everything we’ve been through?
(Gabriella)What about trust?
(Troy)You know I never wanted to trust you
(Gabriella_And what about me?
(Troy)What am I supposed to do?
(Gabriella)I gotta leave but I’ll miss you
(Troy)I’ll miss you
(Gabriella)So I’ve got to move on and be who I am
(Troy)Why do you have to go?
(Gabriella)I just don’t belong hereI hope you understand
(Troy)I’m trying to understand
(Gabriella)We might find our place in this world somedaybut at least for now
TroyI want you to stay
(Gabriella)I wanna go my own wayI’ve got to move on and be who I am
(Troy)What about us?
(Gabriella)I just don’t belong hereI hope you understand
(Troy)I’m trying to understand
(Gabriella)We might find our place in thisworld someday

but at least for nowI gotta go my own away (3x)

the song’s lyrics is just ideal for me. when you really get to absorb the message of the song, you can say that at this days, it’s really very difficult for someone to tell those lines in a mannerable way. when i get to hear this music, it makes me think that somehow we need this lines some time, someway. we don’t have to risk our personal lives when we are not sure of our situation anymore, when we need the time to be of our own. once a person is into a reationship, it isn’t necessary that you have to be together at all times- whatever you do and where ever you have to go. somehow, a person still needs his/her privacy for that someone to have his/her best. even if considering the fact that you are partners, still you have your own plans to accomplish. anyway, we have the saying that if you’re meant to be, then you’ll be.
i hope partners out there get to realize these things and considerations.

Cursed and Blessed

oh!what a great day. ..i just feel like i am cursed. from the time i slept ’till i went home from school.
it started when i dreamed of a really worse event. i was dreaming that my family and all the people was being chased by a "mutant" killer. there was no way to kill him or even just to weaken him. i was trying to save my family but i couldn’t. i was running for my self as fast as i could, not even feeling tired but seems like i could not get farther.
i wasn’t killed anyway and that silly dream did not have the ending because i woke up when my phone alarm rang and it was 5:30 in the morning then. i was planning to wake up earlier than my highschool cousin for me to use the bathing room first.
i usually take a bath atleast 15minutes so i need to have enough time to prepare for school-do all my stuffs (kaartehan bah!).i hate it when my cousin get to take a bath first because she finishes at 6am and i don’t get to prepare my self anymore…grrr. i’d be going to school looking pale and i still have to go to the toilet room to put on powder and lip gloss.
when we where about to go to school, i have not combed my hair yet. i thought that it was only me and my younger brother that my father will be sending to school when UNFORTUNATELY my BELOVED cousin took a ride. i decided to get out from the car and just take up the tricycle since i will surely be late when i go with them and in fact, i really hate to be be with her. so i got back inside the house to fix myself and 15 minutes before my 1st class,i will be leaving. and so i left.
i was glad i reached school before the bell rang. surprisingly, when i was in the classroom there was only me and my other classmate. we were wondering why there was only the two of us so we checked every corner of the school to where they could possibly be. however, we could not find them. i waited for almost 30 minutes and still no one came…
this is great! i woke up early,took a bath with a very cold water and just finding out that i don’t have my 1st class period when my next class is still at 9am…(sigh!) i just made my undone assignments out of my vacant time.
luckily, during my 9am class,i was quite inspired. we had an oral recitation and whoever participates will get a chocolate!and i had 3!yummy! after a while, before our class ended, a friend of mine who’s also a friend and a classmate of my crush called me to ask something. while my friend was talking to me, my crush was staying behind and i was very flattered when he looked at me and smiled. that made my curses vanish and replaced it with an inspiring day…hmmm thanks to Aphrodite!

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